Today is day 5 of my restricting myself from food.. I like the feeling of hunger i get cause that means im in control..im tired of getting up and seeing my puffy face though.. i dont know how to lose all that fat on my cheeks..i just weighed myself and i have only lost one kg..that sucks..so i dont know how im going to hang in there right now.. everytime i walk past a food shop, i feel like i should buy something small to eat..and then i do...and then i feel sick and disgusted with myself..

my boyfriend thinks this friend of mine is so hot cos she is skinny and has big boobs..he told me only cos i asked..then he was like 'but honey, you have big boobs too' only im fat you see..thats why.. so depressed...